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Perhaps...
People have noticed the fact that I become attached to actors, characters, and singers (my muses)....I've been musing on the possible reasons why.
Perhaps it's because I was a military brat, moving from one place to the next for most of my childhood.
Perhaps it's because when you get attached to someone who isn't there...who doesn't really know you...or who isn't real (ie a character) or who isn't even alive anymore, they can never leave you.
You can take them anywhere and everywhere you go, and they don't ever say goodbye.
Perhaps it's because, unlike family, they won't ever judge you.
You can be yourself around your posters and memorabilia and they won't pick at you or be disgusted by you.
They won't preach at you and tell you you're being sinful or immature or stupid.
You can pretend they can see the best parts of you.
I've had to say goodbye to many friends and loved ones in the past, because either I've moved, or they've moved.
I've been attached to many many friends in the past...and then they leave and I can't do anything about it. Perhaps it's because I don't have much of a life outside the internet (yet)...my friends, local and online, are busy with their studies and their lives, and I sit at home, only venturing out to job hunt or exercise, or occasionally hang out on campus when they have a moment.
Then I have "friends" who only call when they want something (a couple in my town...namely the woman of the two).
The less said about them (her), the better.
I'm trying to have a thicker skin.
I try not to be a drama queen or selfish, or whine or take things personally.
People would feel bad if I did that.
I don't want them to feel bad.
I don't want them to feel bad about moving forward with their lives.
I'm moving forward too...but more slowly than they are.
So perhaps...I get attached to my muses because they're the ones who are around me the most...I learn about them...I can love them and write about them...and they can be whatever or whoever I want them to be. And...they will never ever leave me.
And I won't leave them.
People have noticed the fact that I become attached to actors, characters, and singers (my muses)....I've been musing on the possible reasons why.
Perhaps it's because I was a military brat, moving from one place to the next for most of my childhood.
Perhaps it's because when you get attached to someone who isn't there...who doesn't really know you...or who isn't real (ie a character) or who isn't even alive anymore, they can never leave you.
You can take them anywhere and everywhere you go, and they don't ever say goodbye.
Perhaps it's because, unlike family, they won't ever judge you.
You can be yourself around your posters and memorabilia and they won't pick at you or be disgusted by you.
They won't preach at you and tell you you're being sinful or immature or stupid.
You can pretend they can see the best parts of you.
I've had to say goodbye to many friends and loved ones in the past, because either I've moved, or they've moved.
I've been attached to many many friends in the past...and then they leave and I can't do anything about it. Perhaps it's because I don't have much of a life outside the internet (yet)...my friends, local and online, are busy with their studies and their lives, and I sit at home, only venturing out to job hunt or exercise, or occasionally hang out on campus when they have a moment.
Then I have "friends" who only call when they want something (a couple in my town...namely the woman of the two).
The less said about them (her), the better.
I'm trying to have a thicker skin.
I try not to be a drama queen or selfish, or whine or take things personally.
People would feel bad if I did that.
I don't want them to feel bad.
I don't want them to feel bad about moving forward with their lives.
I'm moving forward too...but more slowly than they are.
So perhaps...I get attached to my muses because they're the ones who are around me the most...I learn about them...I can love them and write about them...and they can be whatever or whoever I want them to be. And...they will never ever leave me.
And I won't leave them.
This is just a few musings...or perhaps...a rant...or whatever it is.
I was going to put it up as a journal, but I want to keep Richard up a little longer ^^.
He is my number one muse after all...
(Freddie is close behind ^^)
I was going to put it up as a journal, but I want to keep Richard up a little longer ^^.
He is my number one muse after all...
(Freddie is close behind ^^)
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It's written so well, my dear! It makes me wanna read it again.
(too bad I have to go to school again)
I fully understand you. In fact, since I moved, I have no life outside the Internet. I'd give everything to go to my friend and talk to her for a while.
It makes me wanna read it again. (too bad I have to go to school again)I fully understand you. In fact, since I moved, I have no life outside the Internet. I'd give everything to go to my friend and talk to her for a while.